Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Dear Lord, in my mind and heart, I have these plans on how to be once my divorce is finalized. In my mind I want to stand firm on not being taken advantage of, on not being pushed around, not being respected. I allow for this treatment now because through you we are married, and she holds so much power in this divorce. The question becomes Lord, what do you want me to do, how do you want me to act? I don’t think it’s right the way she treats me and the kids. She argued about her ability to make her own religious beliefs on what to do with Sundays and the kids going to church. She is a Christian Lord and that just boggles my mind. She has already started to waiver their, as she let me take them on a weekend that wasn’t mine, so again Praise You for that. Whatever her reasoning. Even still she has often twisted situations and lied about things to make them in her favor. At what point do I not allow this to happen to me and the kids? At what point does truth become apparent to those around us? I have not been perfect in this situation, but Lord, the villain she has painted me to be, the way she has creative false narrative of what is truly going on here is only meant to make me look bad in people’s eyes and her as the good person, along with giving her the ability to be disrespectful and cruel. Please let me know how to proceed, please though protect me in this process, let nothing hinder it, slow it, disrupt it, attack me, lie about me, be used against me and the kids, just watch over us in every way possible Lord. Please keep satan, his demons, and anyone who would harm us away, please don’t let them be a part of this situation, don’t let them test the situation or create more problems. Just shine your light on it and walk with me to the completion. Then when that is done, help me with my heavy burden, I fear that I will be disheartened, help me to find strength, peace, and joy in you. Bless me beyond my wildest imaginations Lord, so that I may become debt free, grow wealth, and be able to spread that blessing around. Please help my apartment in all aspects to become a place of joy, security, and absolute comfort for the children Lord, this is so important for them, that they know they always have a good place to come to. Lord I have been relying on you more and I am relying on you now, this is so much to ask, but Lord if you say we don’t ask enough, this is me asking for what I consider in my mind a lot. Help me to move on Lord, help me to move forward, help me to find You, and your joy and strength. Help me to be the Christian and man I want to be and should be. I have learned so much in the last couple months and am ready to utilize it. Help me to find a good Christian family, help me to find friends and community, I want to be a high value person and create excellence Lord, You can guide me in this. Open the doors to my future, help me push past obstacles and sow bountifully for the future I believe you have laid out for me. This situation I am in right now is sucking the life and joy out of me. Help me Lord, I love you and thank you.