Othweth
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Lord, in my heart I feel your love. I know you can feel my pain because you have been through pain that no human being can imagine. I feel close to you. From the bottom of my heart, I feel the urge to do good. To help others who suffer as I do. But my hands are tied. At this very moment, I have no job and find it hard to search for one, as I need to take care of my father. The doctor says he is in a "terminal state of cancer". It is hard to watch him suffer, but it is even harder to think and question myself, asking again and again if we did all we could. It is hard when he gets so nervous and argumentative and when I lose the strength to remain patient. Thank you for his doctor, Ms Jelena, who helped me so much by ensuring me that we (me and my husband) have done all we can. What I am asking for right now, what I am begging for is to help me keep faith and love in my heart. Now, when we are going through such hard times. I need to find a job, please help me find one that will be beneficial for the community. I need to have a salary we can live on, but I need as well to know I am doing good. Amen.