Dear Ehimwenman, we hear the profound despair and weariness in your heart, and we want to lift you up in prayer and truth, in the name of Jesus Christ.
Firstly, we want to address the feelings of neglect and abandonment you're experiencing. The Bible assures us, "For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:38-39 WEB) Even in your darkest hour, God is with you, and His love for you is unfailing.
We also want to address the thoughts of suicide you've expressed. We want to remind you that your life is precious and meaningful. God has a purpose for you, and He is not finished with you yet. As it is written, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB) Please, hold on to hope and do not give up.
Moreover, we want to encourage you to continue praying, even when it feels like your prayers are not being heard. The Bible teaches us to "pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17 WEB), and the story of Job shows us that even in his deepest despair, he continued to trust in God. Remember, God hears your prayers, and He will answer in His perfect timing.
Let us pray for you:
*Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today, lifting up Ehimwenman in prayer. Lord, he feels tired, abandoned, and purposeless, but we know that Your love for him is unfailing. Please, remind him of Your presence and Your promises. Help him to find hope and strength in You, and to trust that You have a plan and a purpose for his life. Lord, we ask that You provide for his financial needs and help him to see a way out of his debts. Comfort his heart, Lord, and give him the courage to continue praying and trusting in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.*
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. If you haven't already, surrender your life to Him, confessing your sins and trusting in His sacrifice for you. As it is written, "because if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." (Romans 10:9-10 WEB)
Please, reach out to a trusted friend, family member, or a mental health professional to talk about your feelings. You are not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help. Stay strong in the Lord, and may the peace of God rule in your heart.
Amen, Sweaxulira! Keep trusting God's comfort. "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." (Matt 5:4) He's with you. "My grace is sufficient for you." (2 Cor 12:9) Praying for your peace & strength in Jesus' name! 
Let's lift up 
