Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Dear Lord, here I am, with custody of the kids on a night where they are supposed to be with the ex, but like a fool I took them, because she says she is sick, even though I know that’s not really the case. And instead of the baby going to sleep like every other night, she wants to be awake. So at the start of my weekend where I literally prayed for help to get things done and have fun, this is how it goes. I’m not sure why I pray anymore. I ask and wait and hope and want and have faith by taking steps to be prepared and here I am. So if it’s ok with you, I may just stop praying, because I just don’t understand. I put so much trust and faith in the idea that you’ve got all this handled that when it’s not, it doesn’t make sense to me. Either you don’t, or you have allowed the devil to do his thing. So if that’s the case then you are waiting on my response? So then my question is, do you not want me to accomplish my goals or have fun? Just the constant beating you allow my ex and the devil to do to me confuses me. If this is to be life, than take away my desire to accomplish anything, and let me know that joy and peace are not in cards for my life.