Dear Lord God, It’s been a long time since i posted

[Anonymous]

Dear Lord God,

It’s been a long time since i posted my prayer here.
Reasons, 1st is I cannot express much in english. 2nd reason is, Afraid because there were prayers i posted here that was happened in the opposite of my prayer.

The second reason, i understand it already, because it is Your Will.

Lord God, I have been so bad nowadays. I always watch porn and masturbate myself. Last year I visited porn sites. But my phone got viruses and spyware, that’s why i stopped and i realized it’s so bad. Got many problems in life, I joined tumblr to express myself there in my dialect. I just joined secretly, I made a secret email ad. Secret means No one knew including my boyfriend because he is one of the problem i had(have). I don’t have any social media account except for tumblr. I am a little bit gossipy, there are people I meet or celebrities that I want to know who is the boyfriend of this or boyfriend of that, so I joined twitter and instagram. From tumblr, i knew there porn because there were places i searched and picture of a guy naked appeared. I search porn videos from tumblr, twitter and instagram. My appetite for masturbating returned. Now, I can’t get enough of it. I deactivated my account already in instagram, but in twitter, always deactivate it but reactivate it again. Always uninstall it but install it again when i feel horny (sorry for the word). I tried to install dating apps or any chatting apps. I flirted and then i found someone who’s really flirt. Then we chatted always, topics always being horny, and exchanging naked photos and videos. I know this is already cheating. But I can’t get away with that guy. I’m always distracted, I always left my work to check if he has already messages for me. With that, I feel horny and always on twitter again. It came to my mind to delete my account in that app. I didn’t inform him. I just left quickly. But then, i always miss him. So I install it again. We chatted again, and he expressed his sentiments. Maybe he got hurt that i left him. Again we flirted each other and chatting like a couple but I know this is not right or we met at a wrong time. I did not deny my feelings for him. But other stuffs, i lied. Because I have a boyfriend. Now, I deleted my account completely in that app. But i gave him my number ( I bought a new sim because I cannot give him my personal number), but I plan to throw it away later. With this experience or happenings in one of the aspects my life Lord God, I ask for Your Forgiveness. This is lust. This is cheating. This is lying. These are considered big sins. Lord God, I always ask myself why I am easily tempted. My answer is always because the problems I have with my boyfriend and work. I always escape Lord God. I’m not brave to fight. Also problems because of my family. I always ask myself since I was a child why father is always like that -- always cheating, irresponsible. And then what did i do now, I am like him. I don’t want this Lord God. Please help me get away from this. Please help me to stay out of the temptation. I nearly love the guy I chatted. I pray In The Name of Your Beloved Son, Jesus Christ, AMEN.

 

[Articles]

Our God of peace, you have taught us that in returning and rest we shall be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be our strength: By the might of your Spirit answer this request, we pray of you, so we may be still and know that you are God; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

 

[CJL80]

I prayed for you. May God bless you.

 

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