hellodarlin
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Joel,
I have been watching your sermons for a few years now. I even signed up for the emails for positive reassurance. Joel, I really look up t you. You give me strength. Will all this said Joel since 2011 I have been dealing with unimaginable tragedies in my life. Believe it or not I am still dealing. In 2011 I had a fire in my home and lost everything that I owned and my beloved cat Mr. Kitty. 4 months later i lost my job of 6 years! I have had problems with my family! I have been unemployed now going on 2 years and I cannot pay my bills! I donot think I have anymore fight left in me. I try to believe, I am trying to have faith in all of these circumstances but I am really in a word ..... tired. the thoughts of ending my life I fight off those urges everyday. This has had a profound effect on me. I feel like I am all alone in the middle of the Pacific Ocean struggling to stay afloat with no life preserve. Yesterday I had an interview with a perspective company only to leave thinking I donot have a chance in hell. I have been praying and fasting and yet nothing happens. I am so depressed, defeated, and all the other negative words to describribe. I do attend church but due to my excessive depression this keeps me at home. Please pray for me for I am truly at my end.
Thank you, T
I have been watching your sermons for a few years now. I even signed up for the emails for positive reassurance. Joel, I really look up t you. You give me strength. Will all this said Joel since 2011 I have been dealing with unimaginable tragedies in my life. Believe it or not I am still dealing. In 2011 I had a fire in my home and lost everything that I owned and my beloved cat Mr. Kitty. 4 months later i lost my job of 6 years! I have had problems with my family! I have been unemployed now going on 2 years and I cannot pay my bills! I donot think I have anymore fight left in me. I try to believe, I am trying to have faith in all of these circumstances but I am really in a word ..... tired. the thoughts of ending my life I fight off those urges everyday. This has had a profound effect on me. I feel like I am all alone in the middle of the Pacific Ocean struggling to stay afloat with no life preserve. Yesterday I had an interview with a perspective company only to leave thinking I donot have a chance in hell. I have been praying and fasting and yet nothing happens. I am so depressed, defeated, and all the other negative words to describribe. I do attend church but due to my excessive depression this keeps me at home. Please pray for me for I am truly at my end.
Thank you, T