Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Dear Jesus, you can see my life and see what I am going through. Specifically I will ask for your help. This is not how I want my life to go. I am tired of everything being wrapped around the wants of every one else. It’s one thing when you are in a marriage where the other person wants you, but I am not. I am in a marriage where I am not wanted, treated poorly, and taken advantage of. Literally the other day, we said we need just some quiet time and to get rest and literally I’ve gotten little of it, I’ve had to take care of everyone including a new dog, that will soon not even be a concern as I am forced out of my own home. I wanted to be able to write and do my courses to further my career and goals. When my wife is better then first thing she will do, because she won’t need me to wait on her, is start bringing up how she needs me to start hurrying up the process of a divorce and how she feels stifled by the fact that it isn’t progressing. While the whole time I support her getting better. The bad treatment she has given me lately as I helped her through her surgery, hard times with her business, helped her through her ER visit, and helped her through this and so much more is unacceptable. Yet here I am continuing to be Christ-like and treat her with love, respect and care. I’m not complaining about that, I just don’t know what else I am supposed to do. I’m tired of being treated bad. I continue to trust you and follow your will, I have faith in your plan, I’m just constantly surprised by the attacks that keep coming and I am not sure how much I am supposed to endure. You say to turn the other cheek, I will continue to do this, to forgive over and over. I can do all things the You, who strengtheneth me. I need energy and time to be productive, I need peace and love and strength. Help my wife Lord, help her to feel better, help her to see your light every day and feel your love and mercy, soften her heart to truth. I know that is what she really needs is You, to not feel so alone, right now. If she only saw what is in front of her, that so many of these bad things she is going through can be remedied by looking to You. Please watch over my family, keep satan and his demons away from us, so that we may make strides for greatness today. Specifically Lord I need time to grow and excel, to be a better Christian leader in my house. I want to do what is right. I love you and thank you for your many blessings. Please bless us so much more, shower your love and gifts upon us. The Bible says we ask to little, well I am asking specifically for the ability to pay off my families debts, whether through work and focus, or by just some overwhelming blessing to clear out in one big swoop, may all the glory go to you.