Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Dear Jesus, as you know due to the sins of my past, my world is being pulled apart. The woman I have loved for many years as my wife, no longer wants to be married to me. Not just that, but she tells me that just being around her makes her hate me and makes her hate her own life. To me this an abrupt change, but she says she has felt this way a long time. I am bothered that she never said anything or did anything to communicate this to me. I don’t know what could have been done, but as I care for my marriage and her I would have done something. Right now for my own benefit, I am changing, everyday doing what I can to be a better husband and better Christian leader in my family. Too long I made my life passive and reactive, and focused on others. Now with your guidance I am trusting you and taking action, remembering who I am and what I wanted from life, with a focus on your direction. Please continue to help there. Give me the strength and motivation to get things done, to succeed. In a few weeks I’ll be 39, Lord by the time I am 40, I want to be living a better life, almost completely different. I want to be so much more emotionally strong, so much more focused on You, so much more financially wealthy, more healthy, more happy, more fulfilled, much more of a Christian influence to my family. Help me to be disciplined and strong, to have the drive and energy to keep pushing, to reach heights that I did not realize I could even reach. I am willing to work to achieve this, though bits of blessings to aid and expedite never hurt. I have faith in your plan and look forward to walking it with you, and being able to praise your name to those around me so that they can see your glory and majesty. I am ready to sow bountifully, to reap bountifully. Lord I know satan and his demons will make attacks on my life, they seem to constantly be doing this now and are finding new avenues to do so. Please Lord through this process and right now, keep them away from me and my family. Only you can keep them back, as I work to grow. Help me to shine for you, to respond with kindness and strength. Lord I have prayed before, you know the many desires of my heart, you know the ranking of those desires. I am willing to work for them. Would a large sum of money dumped into my life absolutely put me closer to the place I want to move toward, yes. But it’s not necessary. What is necessary is the energy and drive, and the opening of the doors for me to walk through. You gave me certain talents, skills, and passions, I wish to utilize for You. Help me Lord. Please watch over my family and help me every day to make great strides in my life. In the next two weeks I will have some time to tear through my growth, every day Lord help me to change for your honor and for my benefit. I love you, thank you so much for the growth you have given me in the last couple months as my world is being pulled down, you have done miracles.