Maddie, we appreciate your heartfelt prayer request and come alongside you, seeking God's will together in Jesus' name.
Firstly, we commend you for praying in Jesus' name, as it is only through Him that we have access to God. As it is written, For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB).
You've mentioned a desire for J to have an awakening and know God. This is commendable, as it is God's will benefits all people saved and coming into the knowledge of the truth (1 Timothy 2:3-4 WEB). Continue to pray for J, as God desires all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth. Also, pray for God to give you wisdom about J.
However, we want to caution you regarding the feelings and emotions you have for J. You prayed for them to be completely broken and gone. It is wise not to rely on feelings and emotions, but to rely on God. He grants us certain emotions, but many emotions might also be used by Satan and can be forbidden such as anger and lust . God expects us to to test all things; hold firmly that which is good (1 Thessalonians 5:21 WEB). Having said that, we are not God and may be easily deceived. Guard your hearts and be mindful of any deception from the devil. Have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them (Ephesians 5:11 WEB).
However, we do want to address the issue. It is obvious from your prayer request that you have a deeply disturbed relationship with a person named J. Firstly, we want to remind you that God hates divorce (Malachi 2:16 WEB) and marriage needs to be honored by all (Hebrews 13:4 WEB). J should not have tormented you this way and we do genuinely want this person to have an awakening. and to know God. Be cautious of things in your relationships that do not align with scripture. Attack these specifically.
As wives are supposed to be subordinate to their husbands in everything (Ephesians 5:24 WEB), and as husbands are supposed to love their wives, not treat them cruelly (Ephesians 5:28 WEB), this obligatory covenant is to ensure support and protection. Consider the purpose of your relationships and be cautious of those who may seek an opposite objective of Gods principles.
We pray for the emotional healing of your mind and heart. He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds (Psalm 147:3 WEB). God is close to the brokenhearted. Pray for wisdom to heal and to have a clear mind.
Keep this in mind. Two are better than one, because they have a better reward for their hard work. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up. Again, if two lie together, then they have warmth; but how can one keep warm alone? If someone might prevail against him who is alone, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken (Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 WEB).
Pray for strength and guidance from God to eventually move on from an abusive relationship. For you to meet the next person that will complement you in your life according to God's will and that will serve as your Godly helper as it is written: Two people are better than one, because they get more done by working together (Ecclesiastes 4:9 WEB and It isn’t good that the man should be alone. I will make him a helper comparable to him (Genesis 2:18 WEB).
Pray for a spouse, a Godly husband who is supposed to love you as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her (Ephesians 5:25). This is the biblical model for marriage, and we encourage you to seek God's will in this area. For God knows every detail of your life and sees every tear you cry.
Your prayers for financial provision and opportunities are valid concerns. God knows our needs before we ask. We pray that your needs will be met, and that God will open doors for new opportunities if they align with his will. We ask God to take care of you since you showed concern for child support.
Do not disown him for his mistakes and He does not need to admit any truth. We ask God to help him to overcome obstacles in his paths and repent. A child needs their parents together with the means to take care of them. Take him to God with you, rather than fight him. We know you only want the best for your child.
But God said to him, 'Foolish man, tonight your soul is required of you. The things which you have prepared—whose will they be?' So is he who lays up treasure for himself, and is not rich toward God (Luke 12:20-21 WEB). We should be faithful stewards of our finances, knowing it all belongs to God.
Pray for restorement through the Gospel of Jesus to build healthy Godly relationships and learn God's principle about forgiveness. Pray that you can restore the relationship with J and resolve any generational curses or spiritual warfare.
We pray for your spiritual, mental, and physical health, as well as for your family and friends. Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you (1 Peter 5:7 WEB). Trust in God's provision and healing. Stay encouraged in faith and continue to pray holding the faith. Pray this in all instances: But let him ask in faith, without any doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven by the wind and tossed. For let that man not think that he will receive anything from the Lord. He is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways (James 1:6-8 WEB).
Lastly, stand firm against the schemes of the devil. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil (Ephesians 6:11 WEB and Therefore submit yourselves to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you (James 4:7 WEB).