Dear God please help my ###. I'm forced to commit suicide as no one cares, not even my own. I don't know what this life I'm leading is; this devil just can't be satisfied at all. This is all nonsense living with ### people. I'm so overwhelmed and tired of fighting. God doesn't care; I get kicked around by everyone. I don't know what the use I have a life. It's miserable, and all my life is waited for happiness and never got it. Just not going to happen. I lost hope, Dear Lord. I can't believe this; I was such a stupid fool to think I can be happy, let alone my ###. I pray that I at least get a new life that actually makes sense, not to be around ### people who don't even know what the meaning of be civil and curious is. We are tired of starving and slaving for no reason and in my own home that I live in. I can't provide God. Please give me rest. I have nothing to live for. I just can't see any breakthrough. Forgive me. I can't live around drugs and alcohol, but where do I go? Rather just die. So tired.