Dear God please help my enemies.Im forced to commit suicide as no one cares not even my own.I don't know what is this life I'm leading this devil just can't be satisfied at all.This is all nonsense living with mental people.Im so overwhelmed and tired of fighting .God doesn't care I get kicked around by everyone .I don't know what the use I have a life.Its miserable and all my life is waited for happiness and never got it .Just not going to happen .I lost hope Dear Lord .I can't believe this I was such a stupid fool to think I can be happy let alone my son.I pray that I atleast get a new life that actually makes sense not to be around mental people who don't even know what the meaning of be civil and curious is.We are tired of starving and slaving for no reason and in my own home that I live in .I can't provide God .Please give me rest .I have nothing to live for .I just can't see any breakthrough.Forgive me.I can't live around drugs and alcohol but where do I go .Rather just die.So tired .