Ariies
Humble Prayer Partner
Dear God, i sometimes think that there are negative spirits that have been let into my life, my home, and my family. Ever since we moved to this house, al though it may be unrelated to the house, but things have been different in the family. Over time, we have begun to fall apart, suffering from health issues, depression and other mental issues, alcoholism, addiction, anxiety. When I left this house for a few years of graduate school, I sunk into the deepest depression I've ever known could exist, feels like a spiritual journey, awakening, or something. It started 4 years ago, when I lost an unborn child. My parents relationship also became tense, my mother turned to alcohol and my father just became even more introverted/depressed and distant. My mothers business p.artner retired, and the place started going downhill. My sister also suffered from a bout of depression when our grandmother passed away just over a year ago. My mother let her home and her place of business grow into an unkept mess, when others came to grieve for my grandmother and our family's loss; they could see that there was something not right. She neglected herself as well, sometimes she hurts herself, and I suspect she also may have had an affair or close to it. She is very attached to her friend T. T came into the picture abut 5 years ago, and sometimes lives in our family home with us for months at a time, during which time she enables the breakdown of my parents marriage, and enables the alcohol addiction. She's very manipulative but not very intelligent. I cut off a lot of my friends after I came out of depression, but they could have been the carriers for negative energy as well.. they were not positive people, they all have histories, and I felt it was best to just get away from them as I became more trusting of my relationship with God and the Divine and the Source. My sister also suffers from a slight addiction, although I believe she can overcome it. Her current boyfriend and his family make me uncomfortable. They are good people but I feel that they also have this negative energy that resonates with the energy I felt around my old friends. At times I question myself, because it would seem that I see everyone as negative; but these people came INTO our lives after we moved into this house..as if negative is attracted to negative. anyways... There is darkness with us. Please God, please clear away the darkness. Heal us. heal this home. heal this family. heal your children. Dear God, please be with us. I have heard that the only cure is prayer, I pray for our cure. Dear God, deliver us from the darkness that is affecting us, fill us with so much of your love, your spirit, and your grace that there is no room left for anything but you. Dear God, be with us. Amen.