Dear God..I love my son alot but I wish to die now because I couldn't be the best mom .I couldn't give my son everything his heart wants and I couldn't give him a better home.I'M sorry for not being strong.I'M sorry for not holding on.Dear Lord we are being tortured to death each day continually and I can't bare it anymore especially seeing my son suffering and I'M helpless .I shouldn't be asking this ,it shows I have no faith but what di I do Jesus there is only so much one person can bare.Please give us a place in heaven,take us peacefully as I wish not to live anymore it's too heartbreaking. Thank you please pray for us .