Mereniven
Disciple of Prayer
Dear God I have so much going on inside of me. My life is in shambles. I lost the love of my life do to him being a scammer. I can't stop crying over him. I'm feeling very lonely. Who knows why since he was only an online romance for 3 years. Never meeting or even a video chat but yet I loved him dearly and still do. Yes I want him back but only as a real man doing what he should and doing it the right way. In person with me everyday.I found out I have multiple Schlorosis. I'm always in pain and tired. My family is severely disfunctional and are always fighting. Money is a major problem. I never have it and I'm in serious need of it. I can't buy groceries to feed my family or get my bills paid or fix my truck or household plumbing. Can't by groceries to feed my family or get dog food. I am overweight and very ugly. I can't lose weight and all the holes in my face make me scared to even see myself in pictures or in a mirror. Everywhere I go I am being critcised and told I am stupid or a problem of some sort that I'm always bothering people and they pretty much wish that I would just go away and die quietly somewhere..dear Lord I don't know when and where things went wrong in my life or even how to fix it. Sometimes I don't know if I even want to try. Sometimes I just wanna go home to heaven with you Lord.