Crimolani
Humble Prayer Partner
Dear God, I, Charmaine-Arne V. Mendez. one of the black sheep you have created. Yes, I am sinful. Never one of a perfect human being. But please know I love you and I truly praise you. I remember growing up in schools during elementary and High School. I have questions in mind like who are you? Who is God and who is Jesus? I grew up going to churches or priest would do mass in school I am enrolled in but I still don't know you at all. Until one day I have to experience toughest battles each year. I would look up to the man made saints we have in our room. I would throw tantrums be happy then another cycle but at the end of the day I will always call upon you for help. Remembering the past up to this day ... You have given me chances to fight. battles to conquer but mostly it is your power that will make the tables turn. However I always have to cry my heart out... Back in the day I would suffer emotional and physical pain from my parents ... the day I flunk in school ... the day I had to give up my sleep and be there for my parents. The day I got my heart broken from my 'the one that got away' to loss of finances and a job... I had to endure those things up to this day. I had to give up all my preloved gadgets and used second hand things but worn out... I HAD TO ENDURE IT UNTIL TODAY... Then I had to endure my father also ... yah despite the turn of events somehow there was an improvement on that father and daughter department but Lord , I still don't have money and I believe I had known you better because of my papa, my teacher and some teachings - Thanks to Victory group I watched I get meaty information about you. but the test of faith lord, it is taking over me... I am being weak most of the times... PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I am so tired of this life and I am not one of your toughest soldier. In fact, I surrender. Can I just be in a management position to just oversee things and get high salary ? I am so tired enduring battles in this lifetime. Can I instead get my reward? Yes I am a sinner but no I have been a good person here in this lifetime. Here ON EARTH. Why can't you see that? Why do I always have to suffer?! lord, GOD please save me from this unfortunate events of my life. I felt like a thief... I can't totally voice out my need to my father ... I got trapped with my own wrongdoings when lord all I want to say is that I am a victim of the what we called fate. Fate has been bad to me most of the time... I say my sorry's to everything I have done in my past and present life. In all lifetimes I have been and please include the generation curses... please I repent lord ... Have mercy on me... I am so fuckin' tired... SAVE ME LORD. please SAVE ME AND FORGIVE ME... T_T