Vulreyn
Prayer Partner
Dear Friends, I ask tonight that you pray for me and my anxiety. I often remain at home because I am too anxious to go and simply sit at a coffee shop and read and study, something I used to love to do until my system was shocked re-experiencing abuse by the hands of my mother. After I left her home and gained my physical freedom, my mind feels chained at times to her words of 'who do you think you are, stay at home!' which lead me to believe that I am nothing and that I am better off to the world by sitting at home as if I don't even exist. My intention of leaving my house is not to do anything sinful; rather, to read, get fresh air and sunshine (it has been three weeks since I've basked in the sun), smile at strangers, have a nice meal, meet a new friend. Things I used to love to do. I ask that you pray that God reminds me of the things I used to love to do and how I deserve to be out of my house interacting with the world and to not feed myself the lie that I am 'just a homebody'. I am not 'just' anything. I ask that you pray that I receive some sunshine soon - it's warm rays on my face, and that I am reminded of God's love everywhere, and that I have nothing to be anxious about. Thank you for praying for me, I appreciate it so much.