Iturarfia
Disciple of Prayer
Dear brothers & sisters,
I'm 37 and desperate for a baby. I've never, ever been pregnant before and I'm scared I'll never experience motherhood.
I pray and pray for Jesus to have mercy on me. Please pray for me, I didn't have them in my 20s because I had serious suicidal feelings making 2 attempts, no money and lack of motivation to complete simple everyday tasks. I am very desperate, I'm not even married. I'm so ashamed, I feel the devil has deliberately and maliciously cursed me with this constant singleness and barrenness. The longest relationship I've had with a man is 9 months. I don't know why I'm like this.
The only thing that comes to mind, is a bullying so-called best friend I had in my teens called rujina. She tried hard to destroy my soul with emotional and verbal abuse. She made up lies to ruin my reputation and character. I think the curse of singleness and barrenness came upon me from her.
Looking back, she was a very wicked child. She was a seemingly nice Bangladeshi girl practicing islam and her mother hated me because I was black. I naively thought we could get along but she made my life pure hell.
It's hard being a Christian and child of God. You face a lot of persecution just like our Lord Jesus did. I thank you in advance for your help with my desperate plea and petition to God for a family of my own. God bless
I'm 37 and desperate for a baby. I've never, ever been pregnant before and I'm scared I'll never experience motherhood.
I pray and pray for Jesus to have mercy on me. Please pray for me, I didn't have them in my 20s because I had serious suicidal feelings making 2 attempts, no money and lack of motivation to complete simple everyday tasks. I am very desperate, I'm not even married. I'm so ashamed, I feel the devil has deliberately and maliciously cursed me with this constant singleness and barrenness. The longest relationship I've had with a man is 9 months. I don't know why I'm like this.
The only thing that comes to mind, is a bullying so-called best friend I had in my teens called rujina. She tried hard to destroy my soul with emotional and verbal abuse. She made up lies to ruin my reputation and character. I think the curse of singleness and barrenness came upon me from her.
Looking back, she was a very wicked child. She was a seemingly nice Bangladeshi girl practicing islam and her mother hated me because I was black. I naively thought we could get along but she made my life pure hell.
It's hard being a Christian and child of God. You face a lot of persecution just like our Lord Jesus did. I thank you in advance for your help with my desperate plea and petition to God for a family of my own. God bless