Karun Tamizh
Disciple of Prayer
Dear brother/ sister in Christ. Am a pre medical student who's trying to grab a medical seat in a government college.. I've wasted one year to join a medical college. I've joined a coaching class to prepare for entrance examz while my friends are rejoicing as freshers in some other colleges. So I have to get a medical seat somehow tis year. But the problem is that I lack hard work nd self confidence nd damnly concentration. Am easily distracted by fb nd other social medias. I easily trust people. Nd also am a very short tempered idiot. I've hurt many people by ma harsh words. I've made them cry. I really worry for that but out of anger I JuZ shout at them like a stupid. Adding to tis am a teen age girl who has lots nd lots of inferiority complex. I hate ma appearance . I curse myself for worrying for appearance but I dunno why I cry a lot for this silly thing. I don't hve a definite character. I hate myself. I hve only 4 months to prepare for ma exams. But I don't get the seriousness to work hard. I want to work hard nd get a medical seat. I want to become a doctor and serve the people at northern parts of India where gospel haven't preached yet. I want to die as a martyr for king Jesus. I want enlightenment. I need self confidence, self control, power to overcome temptations.. I want to live a celibate life. I want to live for Jesus. I don't want to hurt people by ma uncontrollable anger. I want peace. I want God. I want holy spirit. I need him to guide me. But I don't pray because am afraid that God may not hear my prayers. ' Cause am a shitty creature. Please do pray for me. I dunno why I live. I want to achieve something in ma life. Please please pray for me. Am totally confused. May God hear at least your prayers for me.. thank you...