Southland
Disciple of Prayer
David is an alcoholic. Serious alcoholic to the point I think at times he has tried to quit and even wanted to but can’t. He has been thru dry out... rehab... been in trouble with the courts etc. I have tried so hard to help him with no luck. I have prayed so hard for God to fix it but no answers. Now he left me in July of last year. July 29, 2019. It has been a rollercoaster. At first we had no contact them some but we did spend thanksgiving and Christmas together and he did spend a week with me out of state when my stepmom passed away. But after that things went down hill. Hardly no communication but once in awhile out of the blue I would get a crappy message either accusing me of being with someone or some kind of sarcastic something. He almost acted like he hated and despised me. But I know him well enough since we have been together so long that I know when he hasn’t yet taken a drink he is ok. Tried to get along. Still loves me and cares and doesn’t want yo lose me but once he takes a sip of the alcohol he turns to someone completely not him. He is mean. Hateful. Sarcastic. Can only communicate they screaming. But I love him. I care deeply. I want him for the rest of my life so I can’t give up on him. I can’t quit. I can’t walk away. I took him for better or worse. I have stayed they good and bad. Now we have a woman who has stepped in and won’t leave him alone who is probably 25 or 30 years younger. She is using him badly but he thinks she cares and she is such a good friend. I pray so hard but no answers I pray for our relationship to be restored. I finally asked for my church to pray Wednesday night without saying for who. Just the circumstances because it was looking so hopeless especially with this little girl. But the next day I felt I needed to call him. So I did. He answered and out if no where said come get him and we would go for a ride and talk which he hadn’t done that in a long time. Last time he went anywhere with me was 7 months ago and he got to needing alcohol so bad it didn’t go good nor did it end well. But we went for a ride and it was a mess. One minute he acted like he wanted to try and fix us then the next minute no he wanted me to go get all these men he named cause he is also very jealous. But by the end of the night he said let’s call a truce. Wipe thecdd sad late clean. Start over. He kissed me as I let him off and I thought things were finally looking up and God had finally answered. I was so happy. I praised God s as nd thanked him determine your prove my appreciation. And that I could draw nearer to him also being thankful that he finally answered some and I just might get my hearts desire back which his word promis Ed our hearts desire. I thought he answered and our relationship would be restored. But by Friday he accused me of a guy in town that I never seen nor spoke to and it’s been down hill ever sense. Back to accusing me of all these men and telling me I need to fix me and get rid of all these men in my life then we will work on us. But the men he is accusing me of are customers at the cafe I work at. Nothing more. It’s my job. They are customers. I can’t put up a sign that says no men. And if he even sees them walking toward the cafe I am accused when they aren’t even coming to yge cafe. Just walking by. Bottom line is I love him. I care. I want and need him. I am dedicated and committed. I don’t cheat. I dint want to. I want him. I s as m not giving up. I am not quitting. I am not walking away. So I need Gods help. Help to restore us. Help to get this little girl out of the picture. Help for him to quit the alcohol. But I don’t know how to get God to answer. I just don’t know. I need mighty powerful prayer warriors to pray with me. Agree with me. Cry out to God with me. Something. Anything to get the most important prayer in my life ever to be answered. But how?