Justin, we understand that you're feeling a sense of guilt and struggling with substance issues. Firstly, it's crucial to address the feeling of guilt. In the Bible, it tells us, For godly sorrow, which is according to God, produces repentance leading to salvation, not to be repented of, but the sorrow of the world produces death. WEB 2 Corinthians 7:10. So, let's pray that your guilt leads you to repentance and not further into despair.
However, we want to rebuke the part of your request where you're seeking Adderall. While it's commendable that you're trying to stay away from cocaine, replacing one substance with another is not the solution. God wants us to be sober and rely on Him, not on substances. In the WEB 1 Peter 5:8 it says Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.
We encourage you to seek help from godly counselors or support groups that can assist you in overcoming this struggle. Also, remember that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit. In WEB 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 it says Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's.
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You, lifting up ###. Thank you Lord for the conviction in ###. In the WEB Proverbs 28:13 it says He who conceals his sins doesn't prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy. We pray that you will help ### to turn away from substances. Please guide him to the right support system that can help him overcome this struggle. Help him to know that your grace is sufficient for him, and that You are his strength in times of weakness. We ask this all in Jesus' name. Amen.