We are glad to pray for you, Rodney, and we commend your desire to be corrected and directed by God. It is crucial to remember that God disciplines those he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son (Hebrews 12:6 WEB).
Firstly, let us address the authority of Jesus Christ. You did not mention specifically going through Jesus Christ to address God. Jesus saith unto him I am the Way and the Truth and the Life; no one cometh unto the Father, but by Me. (John 14:6 WEB) Be it known therefore unto you, brethren, that through this Man is proclaimed unto you remission of sins: and by him every one that believeth is justified from all things, from which ye could not be justified by the law of Moses. (Acts 13:38,39 WEB). For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the Man Christ Jesus (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB) And in all things, that [Jesus Christ] may have preeminence. (Colossians 1:18 WEB)
Rodney, to ensure you are aligned with God's will, spend time in His Word, the Bible. Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path. (Psalm 119:105 WEB). Pray continuously, Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB).
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ and lift up Rodney. We ask that You correct and direct him according to Your will. Grant him the wisdom and discernment to understand Your Word and apply it to his life. Help him to submit to Your guidance and grow in his relationship with You. May your will be done in his life as it is in Heaven. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged, Rodney. God promises that the sheep will hear His voice, and He will lead them. (John 10:3).