Anonymous
Beloved of All
Dear good, I feel myself floundering away from you. I prayed my heart out to you, yet I feel as if my prayer didn’t reach in time. I’ve lost my grandmother, who is the most precious thing in the world to me. I’ve also lost another family member a while after that. Last week, my best friend lost her father. A few days after that, another one of my best friends saw a person be in an accident and lose their life. God, I feel as if I’m being pulled away from you. I’m trying my best to be closer to you, yet I keep losing my faith. Even though I go to church on Sundays, I feel myself losing my faith. Help us share our strength so we can get over this dreadful time together. Help me with my mental health as I’m having trouble focusing during class and as I feel like I’m losing all of my motivation. I know this is a lot to ask right now, but I feel if I don’t tell you this now, I might never feel motivated to do so again. Please help me get a 90 on all of my courses this year and get at least one academic award. I’ve gotten selected for a competition, and please help me get to the next level or at least get a medal. I’ll be having many tests this coming week, so please forgive me if I forget to pray to you heart fully, but please help me study well, undertake the topics, and do very good on these tests. Please also help my friends do the same as they go over this time. Moreover, today in class, after I came back from a talk with my counselor about my health with these events, I saw 444, which is the angel number for protection, while a classmate was playing a game. Later at my friend's father's visitation, I saw 444 again, and I thought it was him watching over us. Please help me understand these signs and help me get a hit of myself so I can be the best me. Help me get my job for the summer so I don’t have to trouble my family when I go to university. I’m currently on a waitlist for my job that I applied for, but please let me get it. I promise you that I will put all of my efforts into it and that I will work hard. Please help me study well for my upcoming two tests and quizzes and assignments. Please be with me. Protect my family and friends and the person who passed away in the accident. Please stay with me and help me.