Saballiffe
Prayer Partner
This is continuation of rqu.st/5031734
I am tryin to stay positive and focused and grateful for what I have. I have one debtor taking me to court and others threatening to sue , as if I just chose not to pay them and instead I was unemployed. I am paying off one debtor currently while trying to pay for basic necessities I have ignored the almost 2 years I was unemployed.
I dread going into work , my body is almost in functional freeze , it is always a fight to do something that should be so simple and that I know will help. I try to stay gracious and to myself but no one takes me seriously unless I escalate something. I just come home tired and tell myself that it will get better. I am trying to be in the moment and enjoy the fact I have a job and my rent is paid , but even small things I know I deserve almost seem like a lot when there’s always a debt collector looming.
I just want to be able to take time and enjoy where I am at and have some experiences , instead of always feelin like the next shoe will drop. I want to be excited to go to work and what new things I will learn. To feel like a human being with normal wants and desires that I can afford myself not feel guilty for gettin my hair or nails done.
I just want to be happy , stable and secure and I dont quite know how to get there but I’m tryin. And I’m tryin to stay open to what God is telling me instead of being resentful of what those around me and family are saying while using His name.
I am tryin to stay positive and focused and grateful for what I have. I have one debtor taking me to court and others threatening to sue , as if I just chose not to pay them and instead I was unemployed. I am paying off one debtor currently while trying to pay for basic necessities I have ignored the almost 2 years I was unemployed.
I dread going into work , my body is almost in functional freeze , it is always a fight to do something that should be so simple and that I know will help. I try to stay gracious and to myself but no one takes me seriously unless I escalate something. I just come home tired and tell myself that it will get better. I am trying to be in the moment and enjoy the fact I have a job and my rent is paid , but even small things I know I deserve almost seem like a lot when there’s always a debt collector looming.
I just want to be able to take time and enjoy where I am at and have some experiences , instead of always feelin like the next shoe will drop. I want to be excited to go to work and what new things I will learn. To feel like a human being with normal wants and desires that I can afford myself not feel guilty for gettin my hair or nails done.
I just want to be happy , stable and secure and I dont quite know how to get there but I’m tryin. And I’m tryin to stay open to what God is telling me instead of being resentful of what those around me and family are saying while using His name.