Cithior
Disciple of Prayer
Thank you all for continuing to lift me up in prayer. I have been praying for God to soften my bosses’ heart and give him understanding and for God to call to him. I have been a ball of anxiety for close to 2 months now. I keep making clerical errors at work, and then receiving texts about them. My boss says he sees potential in me and that’s why he works with me, but I have to “show potential again” and “figure this out quickly”. It scares me because it sounds so vague. I have been praying for a career to open up, for God to make a way for some type of real, lifelong career (because ultimately I only have a job, not a career with my company). I have written about this several times here. I’m hoping to be married next year to my wonderful girlfriend. I pray that I don’t lose my job, it is my greatest fear. It could prevent my marriage from happening. I also cannot face the shame of losing my job, or being demoted, and losing my salary/schedule. I am drowning in fear, I cannot enjoy my days off and spend every moment being anxious of getting a call or text. I pray that God opens a door and makes a way, but that it is not done so out of sharp necessity. I pray for a smooth way, a smooth transition. I know that God has not given me a spirit of fear. I know that God has plans for me, and I know that he is in control of all things. I pray that God would guide my hands and my mouth, I pray that God would keep me from making mistakes, I pray that God’s glory would be seen through me. I pray that the fear crippling me would flee and that it be replaced by God’s love and assurance. I ask all this in the name of Jesus Christ, God’s Son who came among men to die that we may have eternal life with Him. Thank you all for your love and your comfort.