Callum
Servant
Dear Heavenly Father in the name of jesus I pray, lord it's been a little while since my last prayer but right now I'm feeling down, more than I ever have, lord I've made mistakes and sins in my past you know what these are and I am sorry for all of them lord, my mind keeps thinking back to what I have done no matter how much I try to move on, due to this lord I've come to realise that I'm always going to be living in agony and feeling depressed, I don't know lord what I would be like if I was ever truly happy, no one knows what's round the bend and what there future will bring but I know that I'm never going to be happy no matter how much I try to find happiness and love because I always seem to mess it up, lord I know this because not only did I hurt someone last year and break her trust, I just made things worse when I tried to fix things, I love her with my heart lord but I know I shall never been with her and I hope and pray that she will have a happy life without me in it, I've also hurt someone else recently lord and I don't know if she is ever going to talk to me again and I have developed feelings for her to, I don't know if she will forgive me for what I have said and done lord and wouldn't blame her if she chooses not to, this is how come I know I will never be happy and that I shall spend the rest of my life single and alone, and I've only just realised this that way lord even though I might be happy deep down inside me I know I won't be because something will be missing, lord I've come to terms that I won't be a spouse to someone that I'm never going to be a husband or a father, even if I had a lot of money I know that I will never be truly happy because even though I might have everything I will also have nothing, when it comes to my finances lord every time I get back on track something happens and I can't fix it lord, I know lord that my family and my friends will support me but I need help to support myself, lord even though you are with me every day I feel alone, I feel that your not here because nothing is going right, and I don't know if this is your plan or not lord but I need your help to be better so I can have a better life, just any help lord even though I don't deserve it I'm asking for it because I can't go on like this no more, I just can't cope and everyday it's draining me and making me feel weak and useless to anyone and everything, in the name of our lord and saviour Jesus Christ I pray Amen




Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.