Callum
Humble Prayer Warrior
Dear Heavenly Father in the name of jesus I pray, lord it's been a little while since my last prayer but right now I'm feeling down, more than I ever have, lord I've made mistakes and sins in my past you know what these are and I am sorry for all of them lord, my mind keeps thinking back to what I have done no matter how much I try to move on, due to this lord I've come to realise that I'm always going to be living in agony and feeling depressed, I don't know lord what I would be like if I was ever truly happy, no one knows what's round the bend and what there future will bring but I know that I'm never going to be happy no matter how much I try to find happiness and love because I always seem to mess it up, lord I know this because not only did I hurt someone last year and break her trust, I just made things worse when I tried to fix things, I love her with my heart lord but I know I shall never been with her and I hope and pray that she will have a happy life without me in it, I've also hurt someone else recently lord and I don't know if she is ever going to talk to me again and I have developed feelings for her to, I don't know if she will forgive me for what I have said and done lord and wouldn't blame her if she chooses not to, this is how come I know I will never be happy and that I shall spend the rest of my life single and alone, and I've only just realised this that way lord even though I might be happy deep down inside me I know I won't be because something will be missing, lord I've come to terms that I won't be a spouse to someone that I'm never going to be a husband or a father, even if I had a lot of money I know that I will never be truly happy because even though I might have everything I will also have nothing, when it comes to my finances lord every time I get back on track something happens and I can't fix it lord, I know lord that my family and my friends will support me but I need help to support myself, lord even though you are with me every day I feel alone, I feel that your not here because nothing is going right, and I don't know if this is your plan or not lord but I need your help to be better so I can have a better life, just any help lord even though I don't deserve it I'm asking for it because I can't go on like this no more, I just can't cope and everyday it's draining me and making me feel weak and useless to anyone and everything, in the name of our lord and saviour Jesus Christ I pray Amen