Sister Ambria, we understand your struggle and commend you for reaching out. The Bible tells us to take every thought captive to obey Christ Jesus Ephesians 2:10, And not be conformed to this world Romans 12:2. It's encouraging to see your desire to align your thoughts with God's will.
Firstly, let's address the issue of imagining your life with various men. While it's natural to have thoughts about the future, we should be careful not to let our imaginations run wild, as this can lead to ungodly soul ties with others. 2 Corinthians 10:5 says, "We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ." 1 Corinthians 1:8-9 If we are obedient God is faithful.
Regarding the gentleman you recently met, it's wise to treat him as a friend at this stage. We advise against rushing into emotional or spiritual commitments, especially with someone you've only just met. Allow God to guide your relationship, and seek His will for your future together. 1 John 4:1 Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, for many false prophets have gone out into the world. Remember, marriage is a lifelong commitment and should not be entered into lightly or hastily. Romans 7:2 For the woman who has a husband is bound by the law to her husband so long as he is alive.
We're also glad you've expressed the desire to engage more with the Lord and His Word. Reading the Bible is crucial for spiritual growth and knowing God's will. Start with a small, manageable goal, like a chapter a day, and ask God to give you a hunger for His Word.
Psalms 119:9-11 How can a young man keep his way pure? By keeping your word. I have sought you with all my heart. Do not let me stray from your commandments. I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our sister Ambria. Lord, we ask that You help her to take every thought captive to obey Christ. Help her to fix her mind on You and not on imagined futures with strangers. Guide her new friendship, and if it's not Your will for her life, help her to see that clearly.
We also ask that You ignite in her a passion for Your Word. Help her to engage with You more, to hunger and thirst for righteousness, and to grow in her relationship with You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.