Anonymous
Beloved of All
I've been trying to find the right words to post this for so long & I'll just have to do my best. I'm struggling with many things right now. I'm questioning many things right now. Do you believe in reincarnation? Do you believe if you were a horrible person in a past life you will be punished for it in this life? I just don't understand it all. My entire life I've prayed even as a little kid, I was praying. I've always trusted in God but yet my life has always been very hard. From how I was raised, to my teenage years to now it's always been difficult. The last few years have been more than many could handle but I still try to stay positive, try to be grateful for what I have. I know people have it worse & I am thankful but is there really anything wrong with wanting life to be a bit easier? Wondering why after a life trying to do good you can't have a bit of a break? Anyone who knows me will say they feel so bad for me or they think I was dealt a really bad hand. But why? And why doesn't it ever change? And the problems in my life for the most part aren't anything I have the ability to change myself. And still I've never turned my back on God but I'm so tired now. There are many things that could happen that could make things easier- why can't they happen? I read inspirational posts daily that say how God sees you & your breakthrough is coming & I think yes it's coming, but it never does. I'm having a harder & harder time trying to stay positive anymore.