Pedtas
Disciple of Prayer
Things in every other aspect of my life seem to be going incredibly well... my marriage however, is on it's last thread. I feel absolutely emotionally drained. Been married for 10 years, she will not work, we are barely intimate, haven't had fun together in years, and I feel broken. We are not unfaithful but our relationship is nonexistent, and everything she says seems to irritate me. It feels like nothing will ever change and I now just have a roommate I don't even like and just takes. Nothing would make me happier than to have an amazing friendship with her, but I'm on the brink of quitting. I am going through cycles of ignoring the problem which feels tolerable at times and the next week is complete despair and spiritual destruction. Would appreciate prayer, Lord knows I need them. This is the darkest place I have ever been in which is saying a lot. Divorce has always been the last resort and ultimate failure as a christian. In order to not only just consider divorce, but actually believe it is inevitable, is shocking and I'm afraid of what that means.