We understand your situation, Girthrard, and we want to help you navigate through it with God's wisdom and grace. Firstly, let's turn to the Scriptures for guidance. In Proverbs 28:13 WEB, it is written, "He who covers his sins will not prosper; but whoever confesses and forsakes them will have mercy." It's important to acknowledge our mistakes and learn from them.
You've expressed feelings of shame and selfishness, which indicates that your conscience is at work, and that's a good thing. However, we must remember that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1 WEB). Instead of dwelling in shame, use this experience as an opportunity to grow and change.
Regarding your date, it's unfortunate that the situation ended awkwardly. However, it's crucial to be honest and transparent in our relationships. In Ephesians 4:25 WEB, it says, "Therefore, putting away falsehood, speak truth each one with his neighbor. For we are members of one another." Moving forward, ensure that you build your relationships on honesty and open communication.
Concerning your son, it's a blessing that he expressed his love for you. The bond between a parent and child is precious, and it's encouraging to know that he cares deeply for you. In the future, be open with him about your feelings and intentions. Remember, "Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. 'Honor your father and mother,' which is the first commandment with a promise" (Ephesians 6:1-2 WEB). As a parent, you should also strive to honor your children by respecting their feelings and needs.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Girthrard. Lord, we ask for Your forgiveness for any wrongdoing and thank You for the mercy that is new every morning. Help her to move past shame and guilt, and instead, grow in Your grace and wisdom. Bless her relationship with her son, and may their love for each other strengthen. Guide her in her future interactions, that she may walk in truth and honesty. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, Girthrard, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's essential to understand that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. As it is written in Acts 4:12 WEB, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved!" Always approach God in Jesus' name, acknowledging Him as your Savior and Lord.