Anonymous
Beloved of All
please...may I be able to express myself good in a way they understand me.....in a way they understand what I am communicating....in a way where they don't victimize themselves and actually care about what I have to say....where I am listened and seen...where they don't see me setting boundaries as an attack...where I am truly love....may my mom not misunderstand things more...please....may she understand what I said and may she realize I am not attacking her by setting boundaries....I am communicating, building a relationship with her.... may she see that not everything is abuse like my dad's abuse.... may my voice be heard with these three people....may they finally understand what I mean... please...may I get respect and understanding regarding these subjects.... may my mom understand it specially.... I want to build a good relationship with her but it's really hard when she does what she does....to the point she can put my baby in danger, like she has, all to cover for herself, switch things around and pretend someone else is the problem....etc... please Lord, please..... may she return from work with a more open mentality.... may my bro and dad understand their messages too.....may my mom understand that I love her but her reaction to things make it hard to be around her.... especially when she pretends "It didn't happen" or "x thing from the past or "x comment where she acts like things I have said in the past hasn't been shared, gaslighting me, over and over again....please.....protect me, my baby and my cat from all of this...and more...protect us from their abuse too.... protect us from everything....including my mother's misunderstandings...all because she could have some mental issues but she doesn't want to give it time.... please protect me from my brothers and father's influence and misunderstandings....also may my mother stop acting like what I say is the worst thing possible in existence, just to repeat it later as her idea...etc..pretending I am the problem or the one who caused and not her who did it....