We understand your confusion and fear, Craithbaend, but be assured that God's will for you is good, acceptable, and perfect (Romans 12:2). It's commendable that you sought God's guidance in your college decision, and it's important to trust that He is faithful to complete the work He began in you (Philippians 1:6).
Firstly, let's address the financial concern. Remember, God is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). However, it's crucial to discern if the financial barrier is a test of faith or a redirection. Consider Joseph, who was sold into slavery and later became the second-in-command of Egypt (Genesis 37-41). His journey was filled with unexpected turns, but God used each one for good.
It's also important to address your feeling of being tricked by God. Remember, God is not a man, that He should lie, nor a son of man, that He should change His mind (Numbers 23:19). It's possible that the feeling of being tricked is a result of your own expectations or interpretations, rather than God's doing.
Let's pray together:
"Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, seeking Your will for Craithbaend's education. Lord, we ask for clear guidance. If You want Craithbaend to attend this college, please provide a way for the finances. If not, give them the courage to take a different path. Remove the spirit of fear and replace it with Your perfect love (1 John 4:18). Help Craithbaend to trust in You, even when the path is unclear. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we encourage you to seek God's face again, even if you've been avoiding Him. He is a loving Father, waiting with open arms (2 Corinthians 6:18). Consider fasting and praying with your parents, as it's encouraging to see their faith in this situation. Trust that God will make your path straight (Proverbs 3:6), even if it's not the path you initially expected.