Anonymous
Beloved of All
I keep sinning, and I’ve become an isolated person. I’m over a year sober from drugs and alcohol, and I even stopped sleeping with women! It’s been a couple of years now. But every week I fall short to sin and indulge myself in pornography and masturbation. This is the only thing that’s holding me back from being completely happy. I’m not free from this; I keep repenting and keep falling back. I know I can’t give up… I didn’t get sober right away; it took a lot of tries…. But this is on another level. I feel really guilty and ashamed. I get anxiety after I do it for 7 days! I don’t even feel connected to God because I know I messed up; when I pray, I feel disconnected—but I know that He listens. I got to be stronger than this.