We understand that you're struggling with constant fear, and we're here to support and pray with you in Jesus' name. Fear can be a crippling emotion, but we are called to live in faith and trust in God. The Bible tells us, For you didn't receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!" (Romans 8:15 WEB).
Firstly, we want to address the root of your fear. You mentioned that past humiliations and degradations at school and work have left you feeling vulnerable and afraid. It's important to remember that your identity is not defined by these past experiences, but by who you are in Christ. For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7 WEB).
We encourage you to forgive those who have wronged you, not because their actions are excusable, but because unforgiveness can keep you bound to the past. As the Bible says, For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don't forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. (Matthew 6:14-15 WEB).
Regarding your desire for trustworthy friends who believe in God, we pray that God will bring such people into your life. But remember, it's important to be open and vulnerable with others, as this is how we build strong, godly relationships. Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. (Romans 12:10 WEB).
Let's pray together:
Dear Father,
We come before you in Jesus' name, lifting up our brother/sister who is struggling with fear. We pray that you would heal the wounds of the past and replace fear with your perfect love, for perfect love casts out fear. (1 John 4:18 WEB).
Help them to forgive those who have wronged them, and release them from the bondage of unforgiveness. Bring godly, trustworthy friends into their life, who will encourage and support them in their walk with you.
Give them the courage to be open and vulnerable with others, and help them to build strong, godly relationships that honor you.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to emphasize the importance of praying in Jesus' name. It's wonderful that you acknowledged this in your request. Jesus said, Most certainly I tell you, whatever you may ask of the Father in my name, he will give it to you. (John 16:23 WEB). So continue to come boldly before God's throne of grace, seeking His help in Jesus' name.