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By E507097 * 13 posts * Posted Today, 01:07 AM *** Dear God, Please help me. 2 months ago, I quit oxycodone successfully with Your help. I remained clean, and honestly, that's all I ever wanted to be. I NEVER wanted to touch the stuff again. But I had to have surgery. I begged and begged my dad to postpone the surgery because I knew what was going to happen, but he said no, it had to be done now. So i thought I just wouldn't take any pain medicine. Of course, the doctor prescribes me oxycodone. I suffer through two days of excruciating pain, intent on avoiding the pills, but on the third day, I couldn't take it anymore. I had a fever from the pain, so I took a pill. Now I'm hooked again, and have been taking them steadily for three weeks. Tomorrow, I run out. I do not intend to get anymore. Please dear God, have mercy on me. I know how painful this will be and I don't want to go through it again. I tried so hard to avoid this I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE TO DO THIS AGAIN. its not my fault!!!!!! I went through hell to get off these things and now I'm back at square one because of something that i so desperately tried to avoid! please dear God, show mercy. don't let it be too painful. Amen.