I do not want to complain. I know that everything you experience is for my own good and to build in Christ! But I again seek a way out and win! Pray that the Lord will look graciously pain, prayers and dreams in my heart and give real change in my situations, problems and needs in all my life! I want to be not my will, but to be God will ! BUT I need a lot of help! Please pray and to permanently strengthen and blessing in my health! Thank you! God bless you!