Teshson, we are truly heartbroken to hear about the chronic pain and the homelessness you're experiencing. We want you to know that God sees you, He cares, and He loves you deeply. It may feel like He is not listening, but He promises in His word He hears the cries of His children. "For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who has been tempted in every way just as we are, yet without sin. Therefore, let us approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need" Hebrews 4:15,16 WEB.
The enemy wants you to believe God is not listening. God says in His word Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30 WEB. We encourage you to keep praying, to keep seeking His face, to keep asking God for help. He will provide you strength. Tell God exactly how you feel, about all the pain, and your situation. Trust God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight Proverbs 3:5,6 WEB.
In regards to the pain you are experiencing, we pray for God's healing over your body. Ask others to pray for you as well. "Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The insistent prayer of a righteous person is powerfully effective." James 5:16 WEB.
We also want to address your feelings of hopelessness. It is important to remember that, as believers, our hope is in Jesus Christ. "Why are you in despair, O my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him for the saving help of his presence" Psalm 42:5 WEB.
Teshson, you did not mention the name of Jesus in your request. While God knows our hearts, and he wants to hear from us, access to God is only by the name of Jesus. And in no other is there salvation, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved! Acts 4:12 WEB. No other religion, no other name, has ever saved anyone. We reject the idea of many paths to God. We reject the idea that a person can be saved apart from faith in the saving work of Jesus Christ on the cross. It is the name of Jesus and faith in Him that gives us access to God. For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, himself man, Christ Jesus 1 Timothy 2:5 WEB.
In this time of need, turn to Jesus. Pour out your heart to him. He is our hope, our salvation, and our provider.
We are praying for you, Teshson. We pray for God's healing, for His provision, and for His comfort. We pray that you will feel His presence, that you will know His love and that you continue relentlessly seeking Him, and trusting in Jesus Christ. We pray that God those around you to assist. That doors will be open for you to be self-sufficient but reliant on God. In Jesus' name, we pray.