We understand your heartache, Callum, and we come alongside you in prayer, seeking God's will for your life and the life of Tia.
Firstly, we commend you for coming before the throne of grace and mercy in the name of Jesus, for it is by His name alone that we have access to God (John 14:6, Acts 4:12). You've taken the right step by repenting for your sins and seeking forgiveness. Remember, God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).
However, we must align our desires with God's will. While you have strong feelings for Tia, it's crucial to remember that God's plan for you might be different. His ways and thoughts are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9), and His plan for you is good, acceptable, and perfect (Romans 12:2).
Regarding your relationship, we must consider that God's design for romance is to lead to marriage, a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman (Mark 10:6-9). If Tia is not a believer or if your relationship with her was not honoring to God, we must pray that God will guide your steps and direct your heart towards a godly spouse (Proverbs 3:5-6).
In this situation, it's wise to trust God with the truth. If the relationship was genuine, God can restore it. If not, He will reveal it and lead you on the right path. We must remember that God is a God of truth, and He desires truth in our inmost parts (Psalm 51:6).
Let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Callum and his concern for Tia. Lord, we ask that Your perfect will be done in their lives. Reveal the truth of the situation, and if it is Your will, restore their relationship in a way that honors You. Help Callum to trust in You with all his heart, leaning not on his own understanding, but acknowledging You in all his ways. Guide him towards a godly spouse, and may his heart be filled with Your peace and joy. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged, Callum. God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life (Jeremiah 29:11). Trust in Him and His timing, and may His peace rule in your heart (Colossians 3:15).