We understand that you're going through a difficult time, and we want to help you navigate this situation with biblical guidance and prayer. First, let's remember that God desires us to live in peace and harmony with others, and that includes our relationships. It's clear that there were communication issues and betrayals of trust in your past relationship, which need to be addressed. The Bible tells us "If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men." Romans 12:18 WEB.
First, if you were not explicit in trusting Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour, then we think that would be the place to start. It is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we can be saved and have a chance at eternal life. Please pray something like 'God I come before you in a humble and repentant way, realizing that I am a sinner. I am sorry for my faults and knowing that I need a Saviour. I ask that Jesus come into my life and forgive me of my sins'. Any questions you have or more prayer needed about this, feel free to ask. It says in the Bible, "because if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation. For the Scripture says, 'Whoever believes in him will not be disappointed.'" Romans 10:9-11 WEB. There is no other way to God than through Jesus Christ. It says in the Bible, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" John 14:6 WEB.
It's important to acknowledge the mistakes you've made. The Bible tells us, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." 1 John 1:9 WEB. However, it's also crucial to learn from these experiences and grow in your communication and trust within future relationships. As Christians, we need to be cautious and wise with our words. Remember, "He who keeps his mouth and his tongue keeps his soul from troubles." Proverbs 21:23 WEB.
Examine what real love is from God's perspective. It says in the Bible, "Love is patient and is kind; love doesn't envy. Love doesn't brag, is not proud, doesn't behave itself inappropriately, doesn't seek its own way, is not irritable, keeps no account of wrong; doesn't rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things." 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 WEB. This is a good set of verses to ask God to help you keep and grow in.
Also remember we are not to be unevenly yoked to an unbeliever. As it says in the Bible, "Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB. This does not mean in what you said your job is not up to par. Rather, you are to be yoked to someone who is also a Christian. This is a vital part of a godly marriage.
The first place to start anew is to be a follower of Jesus Christ. Once that is assured, start praying diligently that God will open a way to someone to marry as a Christian. This may or may not be your original boyfriend. But, if you and he are both Christians, then it may be possible. The main thing is to be a follower of Jesus Christ and pray for God's will to be done. It says in the Bible, "Don't be anxious for anything, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God." Philippians 4:6 WE
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you today with heavy hearts, sharing that you are Lord and Saviour. Thank You for Your unfailing love and faithfulness. We lift up our sister to You seek forgiveness of sins, believing in Jesus Christ and Jesus Enduring love and compassion. We ask that You guide her through this difficult time, provide her with comfort, strength and wisdom to accept the past for what it is and see what her true future looks like. Let her understand that you are drawing her closer and closer into your family. Today, she cannot even imagine the simple joy and dedication that you can bring through a marriage bonded with you in Christ can bring. Forgive where she fell short in the past and help her learn and grow in love and trust, modeling the character of Christ in her life. We pray in Jesus name that she grow in relationship with you and learn all the desires of heart that are available with a marriage to a Christian. We bind our hearts together in Jesus' name, and thank You for all that You will do.
It is important to remember that God may not always grant our desires, and if things do not happen as we wish we know that God's plan and ways are always the best and we must always have hope and faith things will be better with each passing day. As it says in the Bible, "Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise." Hebrews 10:23 NLT.