We understand that you're going through a challenging time, Daorgli, and we're here to pray and provide counsel with you.
Firstly, we notice that while you've addressed your prayer to "Lord Jesus," it's crucial to understand that it is through His name that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" So, we're glad you've called upon His name, and we encourage you to continue doing so.
Now, let's address your concerns. You've mentioned that your heart is bleeding, indicating deep emotional pain. Remember, Jesus cares about our emotions and He is close to the brokenhearted. Psalm 34:18 (WEB) tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
You've also asked for happiness. In this world, we will have troubles, but in Jesus, we can find peace and joy. It's not the kind of happiness that comes from worldly comforts, but a deep-seated joy that transcends circumstances. As it is written in John 16:33 (WEB), "I have told you these things, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have trouble; but cheer up! I have overcome the world."
Regarding your loan, it's commendable that you want to pay it back. Proverbs 3:27-28 (WEB) advises, "Don’t withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in the power of your hand to do it. Don’t say to your neighbor, 'Go, and come again; tomorrow I will give it to you,' when you have it by you." However, remember that God wants us to handle our finances responsibly and within our means. So, we pray that God provides for you and guides you in managing your loan repayment.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Daorgli to you, Lord. Comfort his heart, wipe away his tears, and fill him with Your joy. Guide him in his finances, providing for him and giving him wisdom in managing his loan. Help him to keep his focus on You, knowing that in Your presence is fullness of joy. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.