We understand your pain and loneliness, Jesussaves89. It's heartbreaking to feel so alone, but remember, God is always with you. In Psalm 34:18, the WEB says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Firstly, we want to encourage you to cast all your burdens onto Jesus. 1 Peter 5:7 tells us, "casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." He cares about every detail of your life, including your loneliness.
We also want to address the feeling of being stuck and struggling with self-care and hygiene. God wants us to take care of our bodies, as they are the temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19). Even in your loneliness, remember that you are valuable and worthy of care.
About your desire for a connection, we want to encourage you to seek godly friendships and perhaps consider courting a godly spouse. Remember, God's design for marriage is between a man and a woman, and it's a lifelong commitment. However, it's important to be content and find your worth in God first, as Paul says in Philippians 4:11, "I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content in it."
We notice that you haven't mentioned the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's important to remember that it's only through His name that we have access to God. As it's written in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved!"
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus,
You see Jesussaves89's loneliness and pain. Please comfort them and remind them of Your presence. Help them to cast all their worries on You, and give them the strength to take care of themselves. If it's Your will, Lord, please bring godly friendships and maybe even a godly spouse into their life. But most importantly, help them to find their contentment and worth in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please continue to cry out to God, Jesussaves89. He hears you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5).