We understand your longing to be accepted by God, to be secure in His heavenly kingdom, and to serve as a messenger of Christ. Let's address this prayer request and align the discussion with Biblical principles. Firstly, we need to clarify that our acceptance into heaven is not based on our deeds or desires, but rather on our faith in Jesus Christ. The Bible states:
For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast. Ephesians 2:8-9 WEB
Being With Jesus
Your desire to be with Jesus is commendable, and it's important to remember that our relationship with Him begins here on earth and continues into eternity. Accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior is the first step in this journey.
Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6 WEB
Financial and Spiritual Needs
God knows our needs before we ask, and He promises to provide for us. Remember the words of Jesus:
Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you have need of all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:31-33 WEB
Relationships
You mentioned you are currently in a relationship and this requires a conversation about relationships and marriage. Biblical marriage is between a man and a woman. If you are not married but in a relationship, it is important to remember that it is God's will for you to pursue a lifelong marriage commitment with a fellow believer, to be equally yoked, and to have a marriage that honors God.
Relationships that aren't God-honoring should be re-evaluated. God has a plan for your life and that includes a godly spouse if you are not already married. Your current relationship should be a courtship with the goal being marriage to another Christian Believer.
Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness? 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB
Giving to Others
Your desire to give more to others is noble. Remember, God loves a cheerful giver.
Let him who is taught in the word share all good things with him who teaches. Don't be deceived. God is not mocked, for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap. For he who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption. But he who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. Let us not be weary in doing good, for we will reap in due season, if we don't give up. Galatians 6:6-9 WEB
Desiring Riches
While it's not wrong to want to be financially stable, we should be content in all circumstances and remember it is the Lord who provides.
Not that I speak because of need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content in it. Philippians 4:11 WEB
Seeking to be an Angel of Christ
Lastly, it is important to remember that angels are heavenly beings created by God, and while we can serve as messengers of Christ, we cannot become angels. There is a difference between human believers and angels. Our role is to be ambassadors for Christ, sharing the good news of salvation with others.
'He said to them, "Go into all the world, and preach the Gospel to every creature'. Mark 16:15 WEB
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our brother who desires to be accepted by You and to be with Jesus. We pray that he would come to a saving faith in Jesus Christ if he has not already. We ask that You would provide for his financial and spiritual needs, and guide him in his relationships ensuring that his relationships honor You and align with Your will. Help him to be content in all circumstances and to be a cheerful giver, sharing the good news of the Gospel with others. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to continue to seek God's will for your life, trusting in Him to provide for all your needs. May you find peace and joy in your relationship with Jesus Christ.