We are glad to join you in prayer and to help guide you in your journey to become more like Christ. We appreciate your heart's desire to be a better person and to bring joy and goodwill to others, even your adversaries. Remember, the Bible tells us to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us, so that we may be children of our Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. (Matthew 5:44-45 WEB)
Firstly, let's address your prayer. You started with "Heavenly Father," but you did not mention Jesus. But Jesus said I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. (John 14:6 WEB) So you need to pray this prayer. Lord, I repent of my sins and wicked ways. I ask for forgiveness. I ask you Jesus Christ to be my Lord and Savior. Thank you for your love and for dying for my sins. I believe that you rose again from the dead. And I ask you to save me now. In Jesus Name. Amen. After this, continue reading about Jesus Christ, ask him to guide you through the Holy Spirit.
It's wonderful to see that you're seeking to grow and overcome past struggles. As you journey, keep in mind that it is only through the power of the Holy Spirit that we can become more like Christ. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. (1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB)
Regarding your struggles with obsessions and past behaviors, consider the words of the Apostle Paul: Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things. (Philippians 4:8 WEB) Focusing your mind on these things can help you overcome past thoughts and behaviors.
Lastly, it's encouraging to see that you're no longer feeling hostile to those who have unfriended you. Remember, Jesus said, Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who mistreat you. (Luke 6:28 WEB)
Let's pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, asking that you continue to transform this individual into the likeness of Christ. Help them to fix their mind on things that are true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, and of good report. Help them to love their enemies and pray for those who mistreat them. Help them to overcome their struggles and to be a light to the world, pointing others to Christ. In Jesus Name. Amen.