Thynlan
Disciple of Prayer
Before I begin : Thank you so much for taking your time and answer me. I really really appreciate it you dont know how. My ex and I broke up a year ago more than a year, he tried to win me back very hard over a couple of months. But i turned cold and pushed him away. Then last year he found someone new in the church and since then he is in a new relationship. Through friends i know that he doesnt really love her and is still grieving over our relationsship like I do. My friends told me to reach out to him because he wants a sign from the lord yesterday I had a 3h phone call with our best friend. I told her that I might approach him again and what the best way is to do it. She and her husband immediatly said just "surprise" him at home. So he has no other chance to face it or to overthink again... because he is very very anxious about me jsut like Iam. But there was on part that made me very unsure about this all again .. I thought that he is just with her because he cant be alone.. and the timing was just perfect for him and her to find each other, because we both were already finished, just like you said before. BUT He thinks (we are both christian people) that God might sented her to him because she is christian, serving the same church and is very business focused like he is. He told our friend that "on paper" she can be a match for him but well the emotional side is not there. So he is so confused what is the right thing to do or to say it better which woman sees god for him ? THe part of missing me, have the desires with me etc. is it from god or the devil? was she sent from god or the devil ? And without ego, I get that. I was in the same place like he was last year when he tried to win me back. And i was so sure that he wasnt the one and god has someone else for me. Someone specific to be honest.. but turned out that wasnt the case at all. So I dont know what your relationsship is with god and maybe you think now thats is all BS, but all this makes everything more complicated. And a big problem was his time, because he is trying to built a business he has not so much time now. He still made a lot of effort to still make some time with me but well last year, he had no chance to win me back. I was just so over it. But as I said his new GF, seems to be more easier now with all this. But she feels that he is still in love with me, she asked him if Sam(me) would be standing in front of your door, Im sure i will be gone for you... So yeah.. she knows whats up. But Im so confused now!!! i dont want to get involved in a love triangle and i dont want to proof him that Im the right woman.. I stood by him for 10 years.. I was loyal and faithful the whole time.. and it really really hurts me that a woman who is still and almost a stranger to him, can question him, who is right one ? I get that he has fear to go back with me, i have the same, will the old drama start again and distract him from his life goals, did he let go of the wrong woman who god sent him etc. But... oh well sorry for the long text. But im SO SO SO confused and hurt and i just want this nightmare to end. Im so over it to be inbetween waiting or letting go. I have no fear to face him but i have fear of the outcome. I dont want a man who is unsure about me.. even when a lot of ego is also talking right now.
