Hungry4love357
Servant of All
i finally Got up the courage to ask Jessica for a coffee date, and of course she siad no. What a relief, someone just striat up told me no for a change, instead of I'll think about it. Still I had it bad for her. I did thank God for the rejection. But it still hurts. I have not asked anyone out for at least 5 months. I'm tring to let God bring her to me, instead of seeking her out. I keep hear about guys who have been though the same trouble, 34 years and up. It makes me sick hearing about it. I sure hope I don't have to wait that long. I have cousins who have alaready met there brides and maried them. Not much older than me. None of the older women that have been though these kinds of things have even looked at me. I think I've just been kidding myself. I would not be able to take care of her even if I did find her. I think people just tell meI'll find her because thats just what they know I'll wanna hear. I did have some positive encouragement that she would come into my life, but I am having trouble keeping my head up. I'm tired of waiting, and just thought that I may have to wait another decade before i even meet her, makes me nervous. I am so afraid of facing life without a helpmate. I don't know what so say, or what to think. I want to express my feelings, I want so bad to meet and talk to someone who has litterally been though the same thing. I don't know how not to expect it. It's just like, it could happen any day now. I know it will. Just all the waiting is killing me. I have no idea what I'm supposed to to to get ready, and I've even asked God what should I do to get ready for her. No answer. Not even a door of opertunity. Should I stop asking God to bring her? Should I not ask a girl out at all until she comes into my life? What can I do? I can only trust that God will answer my prayers. I need peace of mind. Why is this so hard? Please pray that things will work out. I need a merical. I'm to shy and akward. I'll never meet my helpmate without Gods help, without the help of prayer warriors that believe it can happen. Pray for the merical thats about to unfold. I can feel it. There will be a breakthough. I'm upset right now, becaues of what happened today. But something has to give sooner or later. Pray that this answer will come. Please. In the name of the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit ahen.