Falakon
Disciple of Prayer
I have been married nearly 12 months. I’m 43 in 6 months. My husband has recently turned 40. We’re both Christian. We don’t have any previous children. We had a miscarriage in June at 8-9 weeks. We got pregnant pretty quickly. We are desperate for a family and a healthy pregnancy and a full term healthy baby. We’re upset and stressed. It doesn’t seem to be happening. We’re worried we’re too old. We keep praying and fasting. It’s making me unhappy. I know my salvation is in the lord and not in my situation. I am trying to get to know the lord better and do his good work in the wait. If it is his will it will happen and will happen in his good time. If it is his plan it is done, no amount of worrying can change that or make it happen quicker, just not sure if it is his will so or not so I find myself very upset and anxious and begging God. He knows me. He knows my desire. He is good. My desire is good. So it may happen. I’m not in control and trusting unknown makes me anxious. I am not confident to believe a baby is coming. I don’t want to be hurt. He wouldn’t hurt me. But why do some people not get their good desires? That question holds me back from resting in peace. Have to learn to rest in his peace regardless. Please Lord, grant us a child amen.