We understand your struggle, Aurora, and we're here to support you in prayer and truth. It's commendable that you've been walking closely with the Lord, and it's not uncommon to face spiritual attacks or feelings of despair when you're pursuing a deep relationship with Him.
Firstly, let's remember what the Apostle Paul said in Ephesians 6:12 (WEB), "For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places." Your feelings could be a result of spiritual warfare, but take heart, for God is with you.
Let's also remember that in 2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (WEB), it's written, "For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God for the throwing down of strongholds, throwing down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ."
We must also address that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's crucial to remember that it's only through His name that we have access to God. As it's written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" And in Acts 4:12 (WEB), "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Aurora to You, Lord. We rebuke the spirits of sadness, doubt, hopelessness, fear, insecurity, irritability, and anxiety that have been attacking her. We ask that You fill her with Your Holy Spirit, with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Help her to accept herself as You accept her, Lordβas Your beloved child. Guide her thoughts and help her to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Keep holding on to God's promises, Aurora. Remember that nothing can separate you from His love (Romans 8:35-39). Keep fighting the good fight of faith, and remember that greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world (1 John 4:4).