Anonymous
Beloved of All
Asking for prayers. A lot weighing on the heart and mind...last week, a dear friend of mine took his life. His girlfriend, with whom I am also best friends, was in the house when it happened. As one could imagine, she's beyond shattered, blames herself, and has kind of been quiet with me. I feel guilty for conversations or experience I didn't have with him that I wish I would have...leaves me to wonder if I did, would it have saved him? I just feel so useless today as well. I feel isolated with so many feelings about this and other situations. I'm 32 years old and I don't even know what my purpose is. I wanted to be a wife with a loving husband and possibly have a family of my own, but even with prayer that dream seems so distant. I have feelings for a guy I can never share with him because they won't matter to him, I don't think...and I can't easily change heart. A part of me wants to just isolate myself from everyone outside of work and immediate family. Prayers please for myself, my female friend...and our futures. Amen.