We understand that you're going through a difficult time and feeling a deep sense of loneliness and desperation. First, we want to address your statement that God hates you. This is not true. God loves you deeply and completely. The Bible tells us, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life." (John 3:16 WEB)
It's important to understand that God's love for you is not conditional on whether you have a spouse or not. He desires a personal relationship with you, and His love is the only thing that can truly fill the void you're feeling.
Regarding your desire for a spouse, we encourage you to seek God's will in this area. The Bible tells us, "Delight yourself also in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4 WEB) As you draw closer to God and delight in Him, He will place the right desires in your heart and fulfill them in His perfect timing.
However, we want to caution you against rushing into a relationship out of fear of being alone. It's crucial to trust in God's timing and to seek a spouse who is also a believer and committed to God's principles for marriage. The Bible warns us, "Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB) Also, 1 Corinthians 7:39 says, "A wife is bound by law as long as her husband lives; but if her husband is dead, she is at liberty to be married to whom she wants, only in the Lord."
We also want to address your feelings of severe depression. We encourage you to seek help from godly counselors, pastors, or trusted friends. The Bible tells us, "Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." (Galatians 6:2 WEB) There is freedom and deliverance in the name of Jesus for many afflictions including depression. Cast your cares on the Lord (1 Peter 5:7) Taking the yoke of the Lord on you will give you rest from a weary and heavy laden heartburdened with sadness. (Matthew 11:28-30)
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Jesussaves89 to you, asking for your comfort and guidance in this time of need. Lord, remind them of your unfailing love and fill them with your peace that surpasses all understanding. Give them the strength to trust in your timing for a spouse, and guide them to a man of God who will love and cherish them as you do. We also pray for deliverance from the spirit of depression and the strongholds in their life. In the mighty name of Jesus, we cast out all spirits of depression, spirits of heaviness, and spirits of being weary in well doing. We cast out the spirits in the name of Jesus and plead the blood of Jesus on this person and their home. We bind all demons in the name of Jesus and loose the spirit of joy, love, and peace. We ask this all in Jesus' name. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue seeking God and growing in your relationship with Him. As you draw near to Him, He will draw near to you. (James 4:8 WEB)