As you might not know, I am a Pastor's ...

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As you might not know, I am a Pastor's kid from South Korea. I've been grown up under Christian background, experienced an unfailing love of Jesus Christ who saved me, made him my savior, and witnessed his power and wisdom through my life. In Spiritual perspective, I've spent great 4 years of international high school with God. I studied for His glory and humbled myself whether I glorified Him or did bad things.

Now, I am college senior student in United States who is about to graduate this semester. I sense that I no longer go to church since Sophomore year where things get much busier than ever. I began focusing on schoolworks, resting, and other worldly things.

I thought I had an excuse. I still prayed for His wisdom and presence whenever I have a test, something important or big. But, I realized that the only moments I prayed to Him was to get spiritual helps for my test score or whatnot.

But the GPA starts going down, and my body has been weakened.

I also once thought of committing suicide when I was Junior year, but I got a counselor help to overcome that.

Now, this is clearly shown that I only approach to God whenever I need something. My father alerted me that I need to re-establish a relationship with God from a phone call a month ago. The amazing thing is that I did not tell him that I don't go to church, but my dad knew what is going on in my life.

Here are my prayer requests.

Currently, I need to attend Sunday services again. The main problem is that I can't wake up in the Sunday morning as I used to do it. It's either I go to bed late or want to sleep some more. Please pray for my physical body in the early morning. Pull me out of this laziness.

I have a lot of guiltiness right now. By the fact that I haven't go to church for almost 2~3 years contiguously, I feel so strapped and uncomfortable that I have disappointed God. I have committed sins over and over many times, but I always told him that I'm sorry and a sinner in front of Him. So I asked Him to forgive me every time. Then, I forgot what I said and sinned again. There is something wrong in this cycle. And, I want to break free. Please pray for my heart. I know that I am not sinner since Jesus Christ has washed my soul, but I think it's one of the times that I want to hear it again from Jesus Christ via prayers.

I have a lot of worries about getting a job after graduation, sexual temptation, and so on. I am completely out of easiness.

Lately, I have been hearing some of Matt Redman's worship songs. Like 10,000 reasons, You alone can rescue, and You never let go. They are amazing worship songs. If you haven't heard of them, please do it so that you can understand my heart better.

As I hear those songs, my heart started singing for God's glory and the panorama of good moments with God from my life just passed away in my head. I do miss a relationship with God, but I can't re-establish new one with Him by myself, because it's very hard for me.

Sometimes I feel that God won't accept me anymore by the fact that I depend on Him whenever I need something or lying about coming back to Him.

I know that you might be busy in your daily schedule. But, I am so desperate and can't stand anymore this ill cycle of life.

If you can, share this prayer request of mine with people you might know.

 

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Lord, we thank you that you for the blessings that you have given us. Help us to honor you in every part of our lives. We place this request at your throne. Please hear and reply according to your perfect will and timing. Grant us the peace to know that you are in control. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

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