hi my friend, i think i know how you are feeling, i sometimes feel like the enemy is trying to throw this wet, heavy blanket of spiritual slumber onto me & its alarming to watch yourself falling asleep like a frog in a pot..
i was given some advice to just wait on the Lord, 3 times a day for an hour each time, like daniel & read my bible for an hour every day & ive been doing that faithfully for idk maybe over a year now & i can see im beginning to reap what i have sewn.
my journey has felt like ive been crawling on my belly in the dark through a spiritual sewer & a lot of those hours waiting on the Lord have been spent in tears & despair because of the grim outlook of my spiritual condition, but He has shown me time & time again, He is faithful, you CAN trust Him & His word & He will not let you down.
having said that, it is a battle & the Lord has told me through songs that i have to fight for my life.
(the battle for me has been mainly in my mind)
but dont let go, i was sinking like the apostle going under & He took my hand & lifted my head, He will never leave you or forsake you, so keep doing what the Lord & His Holy Spirit are leading you to do no matter what.
i lost all closeness to God & He brought back my dreams, visions & for the first time i had a word of knowledge or message from God for someone else, but its been a dry & rough journey thru the wilderness, but our faith will also be tested, so hang on at all cost!!
i was shown my potential destiny & i was walking very carefully as not to mess things up & i screwed up big time, even with being pre-warned by God & He still helped me, when things in the natural seem impossible & all your dreams are shattered like glass, He is the God of impossibilities, nothing is too hard for God, have faith, He will finish what He started, im fighting for revival, the last mega wave is going to hit soon then the Lords return, so He will pour out His spirit before the end so everyone has a chance.
hold on tight & cry out to Him.
whoever calls upon the name of the Lord will be saved.
He is working ALL things together for your good, not just 99% of things, or only the stuff that seems good..ALL THINGS.
God bless.
"No Second Prize"
Oh Yeah
I heard about a person who had a broken heart
With nothing to drive him on, no hope no spark no flame
He couldn't see at all tears they were blinding him
He kept it all inside, the guilt and all the pain
You know I say I tried to warn him
They had him backed up against the wall
I hope I'm not too late
No one can tell you exactly what you have gotta be
You've got to stand your ground and fight to save your life
It may be hard but ooh ooh it's the only way
Always remembering there ain't no second prize
There ain't no second prize
You know I say I tried to warn him
They had him backed up against the wall
Why can't I stand up and try to tell him
They've got me backed up against the wall
I hope I'm not too late
No one can tell you exactly what you have gotta be
You've got to stand your ground and fight to save your life
It may be hard but ooh ooh it's the only way
Always remembering there ain't no second prize
There ain't no second prize
Oh no there ain't no second prize
There ain't no second prize
Oh no there ain't no second prize
There's not gonna be no second prize
Oh no there ain't no second prize
Oh there's no second prize
Oh no there ain't no second prize
Never never never never gonna be
Oh no there ain't no second prize
;https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkFXbmELw6c